I love him but despite how my mother is, there’s no excuse for him or my cousin. Yes, my aunt wasn’t the greatest mom but at least she cared enough and I saw it all as I was there in those age because I always spent my time there with my cousins. I am sorry but just because you had a rough past doesn’t mean that it excuses your behavior now and people do really change and want to heal the old wounds but you gotta let them try to be there. I remember being in the car with my cousin and her mom (my aunt) arguing and saying everyone knew she was a bad parent but she was only a bad parent because she wouldn’t put up with my cousin’s bad destructive habits like drugs and alcohol. If you don’t allow those people to do what they want, you are labelled as a monster or a horrible person and that’s what I am saying that my own brother is the same. Spoiled by my father that only wanted boys and discarded me when I got older but honestly regardless of how he lived or how he’s treated, he is not excused and while he is valid in his feelings, he can’t go around hurting people for a mistake when I have always been on his side.
I just don’t have time to deal with his’ “fuck you” or whatnot. I can’t deal with the tears and just the nastiness of him because I left that life behind and I hope and chant that he realizes the kind of hurt he caused and grows up. No doubt it will happen with the military and the Marines or else he’s having a hard time indeed. No amount of pain in the past can excuse hurting others despite hurting yourself and even if you don’t realize it, don’t do it.
No, age is no excuse is either and I want him to realize that I am not living a wonderful “life” at home and that his words do have consequences but in the end, in the end, he’ll be alone with his own thoughts. His own problem.
But Easter was great, but I started off the weekend with taking care of my neighbor’s dogs because she was stuck at work for the night and she later reunited with them, and gracing me with a Cheesecake.