SO a lot of things happened like: Marley getting hit by a car and while I didn’t see the accident, I ran to it because she ran to the road in hopes of catching the mail man on the other side. He always carries dog treats and Labradors are known genetically to be more greedy than most breeds and that’s why they can get fat quickly! Luckily, Marley has been very active and I take her on walks every week or so to the park because she loves them dearly and she’s doing hella awesome walking on a leash, regardless, she got hit last Saturday before Father’s Day. She only had a big cut in her ear and was bleeding from it, but besides the limping…she was still in a lot of pain, so my ex (literally. He became one of my greatest friends! Not many exes can do that. We both realized that we weren’t meant to be and quietly resumed our friendship because we get along too well and we both carry the memories of love in our hearts. Memories are beautiful but I never dwell on them anymore, not worth it. I am in love with my husband, Jose) took me and Marley to the emergency vet. She had soft tissue damage, mostly.
Then Father’s Day hit on Sunday and I was left in a tizzy because I have a third world country father who believes in the ideals that women aren’t equal to men and it hurts that he uses this culture against me, despite me loving my Hispanic, Salvadoran side. I love that country to bits and despite the bad of it, I will eventually go back because it was peace. I wished my father a happy day but he isn’t my father as my father in law has fulfilled that role quite much. He calls me his beautiful girl and is happy that my husband is happy and what else could a father ask for? His son to be happy…happiness is what you give it and what you take from it. Happiness isn’t a warm anything, sorry Beatles, but happiness is something that is achievable in one’s life if one strives hard for it though there are obstacles if and when but happiness always waits.
I lost 6 lbs and I am back at 216.4 lbs so that’s good because my med, Lamictal, the mood stabilizer is helping not only my weight but my moods and anxiety, and I couldn’t be happier in that respect. I guess with the days counting down to the appointment to sit with the job agency makes me feel glad and sad too. I still don’t believe I should be working but I don’t qualify for disability because I haven’t worked enough despite having the issues I do. I just hope that things work out well with jobs and I can keep one.