It’s been an interesting few weeks honestly and while I can say that I had bad and good days, it wasn’t so bad after all despite me dealing with renewed depression. I won’t go into length because I know that’s difficult to understand and people don’t care much for reading it but realize that it is part of my life. Part of me, and while it doesn’t define me, I know that I can manage it wholeheartedly and continue to strive for recovery. So, that’s why I switched antipsychotics and also dropped a few meds to help with the process of gathering my mind together and that’s very crucial. Usually, a lot of the meds I take are used off label and it means that they aren’t used in the way they are supposed to but it’s okay because it’s totally legal and they can benefit other symptoms of any disorder.
The new antipsychotic
The story goes that I had to drop it in 2016 due to my insurance refusal to cover it unless I tried other antipsychotics now that I have done that I can definitely take it with no real cost to me. Health insurance is so fucked up in America and despite having great insurance there always is a deductible that I have to meet in order for my insurance to pay for nearly all of it. Don’t worry, I won’t really go into politics on the matter because it’s a sticky subject for anyone to be hurt by.
Then I happened to watch the dogs again for my neighbor as she went out of town to visit her daughter and grandchild for a graduation which is weird for 3rd grade honestly which really cheapens the whole high school graduation being important for anyone. It is just weird, honestly but whatever, my neighbor went and so I managed to take care of what I had to and of course I certainly do get paid for my activities with the dogs, and to starve off their uncomfortableness, I managed to pet and love them so much but of course, I loved them from the beginning but only now after 3 years of living here, they have grown to trust me and besides they love Marley and she loves them right back.
The doggosGrowing my hair out
Then it was father’s day and I ended up celebrating my own father, father in law and father figure; Each of them touched my life in various ways and while we should always treasure them, it helps to be reminded of the appreciation we have for them.
fatherfather in lawfather figure
Thank you for loving me for all my faults and taking chances on me when no one would. I love you all!
Posted on June 20th, 2018 in Blog