Sorry for not posting for awhile as I’ve been doing a lot of other things in real life and I just finished Persona 5 and I spent 100 hours in it, wow. It was a very satisfying game to play and if you’re into JRPGs, then I highly recommend this game and besides, it is a unique game that is stylish and the music is so jazzy and so cool that you’ll wanna listen to the music outside the game and I’ve been writing fanfiction (here) based on the story and it’s quite fun now that I’m back to my writing mode which I missed and someday, I’ll write my stories again. This is a good sign!
The last end of September was quite busy because an old school system was released by Nintendo and I managed to stand in line for 6 hours to get it. I’m talking about the SNES classic.
Why we don’t have socialized medicine comes from the fear of “communism” and anything or threatening democracy or capitalism is evil and Stalin’s USSR was a big eye opener to what the US was afraid of, and while we under Truman started the containment policy, the US got involved in countries like Vietnam and other South East Asian countries. We have no business being the world’s police and instead need to fix our own infrastructure instead and not focus too much on world politics because as a country we are falling apart and committing violence against our own citizens and encouraging that sort of violence against people that aren’t white or male. It needs to stop and Trump is instead not disavowing the violence and is still wavering on it. He’s a bad president and a bad person.
And when the hurricanes happened in Texas and other states, he talked about the size of the crowd instead of giving aid and it’s happening in Puerto Rico while he starts Twitter fights over first amendment rights of all Americans and I’m glad that other people call him out on it. He even tries to provoke North Korea and calling the leader Kim-Jong Un a “Rocket Man” and doesn’t take it seriously when he’s endangering people’s lives and trying to start wars with other nations. Sure, North Korea is a terrible country for killing and starving its citizens but the fact remains that it is backed by China and Russia and that’s a problem. I would hate for my little brother or anyone going to war because of our idiotic president.
Regardless, American politics is pretty fucked up this moment and there has to be a way to change it.
And that brings me to my next point: Being responsible for pets especially dogs and the mindset that dogs deserve to be outside only and I see that from a lot of Hispanic people and it is disheartening to know that and the fact it is happening near me and I just had to send an animal cruelty charge against it because this sweet pup is kept outside without affection and mostly water in the Texas changing weather when it goes to scorching fucking hot and then chilly and they only come out once a day to feed it, and this sweet pup is so starved for attention that he stands by the fence and is delighted to be petted and loved.
Though, my husband has extreme anger issues and overreacts to things that don’t need to be escalated and sure, I have impulse problems but lately, I am doing my best not to let them control me, but when he found out I bought something months ago and before our talk about me not buying things anymore, he went ballistic and slammed things on the ground and threw a figure against a picture and broke the glass.
He has tried to hurt himself because he feels that me lying and going behind his back is as bad as “cheating” and he has unintentionally hurt me in his anger, but he is so blinded by that hot flash that he forgets. I told him straight up that I won’t tolerate it anymore and that if it happens again regardless of my actions, then I will leave with Marley and I have a place to go too, so I am not worried about that. I told him that while I love him, I refuse to live the life my mother did because that will escalate into domestic violence and I will not let it get that far as I already remember my mother being violently struck by father over pointless things and me trying to block it out with music, TV or anything to stop from hearing it. It’s a terrible thing to witness and I think my mother has problems still because of it and doesn’t take care of it.
I haven’t spoken to my mother in many months and I don’t miss her, but she is refusing to pay for her last phone bill and it has been grating on my nerves and while, I blocked her number, she is being petty just over 19 dollars. Let my husband pick it up as she lives like 5 minutes from me and be done with it. She’s infuriating honestly.\
Plus I have a stalker on my blog so I had to block two IPs from them because of that and the fact I can’t say much more than that on my blog because I am given trouble if I do and angry emails and the likes. Sigh. I still have Instagram, Twitter and Facebook to talk about it. I will not say much more. I just wish things were differently these days but oh well.