First off, I want to thank everyone for the well wishes from my previous post about my wedding anniversary. Thankies everyone! And second I wanna say, this is my second time writing a new entry. More info about that in the paragraph below.
Last week was interesting and busy to say the least and quick. I spent one day with my bestie Ashley enjoying Japanese food and hanging out a bit. It was fine and a nice treat to see my bestie from a long time but I don’t know if I should call her that anymore. We aren’t close as we used to be and…I miss those days. I’m just not that close to anyone anymore and it makes me sad. The last person that I was close to is dead and I’m still alone but I’m fighting that loneliness and moving on. I have to for the sake of it.
It’s my one year wedding anniversary today and to say the least, I can’t believe I’ve gotten to this point. The amount of love, caring, and patience that my husband has shown me in immeasurable. I never thought I’d be so happy or even be smiling for the first time. Yes, I have a hard time smiling as it isn’t my normal disposition. I may not do it in pictures on command but I can smile and laugh while I’m with my closest friends, family, and my husband. I just don’t like doing it much since it hurts a lot and whenever I try, I look like I’m smirking evilly.