I can’t begin to tell about the events of the last week and as my last two weeks are nearly done, work is gonna resume with limited hours and I couldn’t be happier about that. SO HAPPY. I missed working because of the energy and it seems things have gotten a bit better, just a bit with Texas reopening but I don’t know sometimes. It’s been crazy but we’re handling it the best we can, and by us, I mean my husband and I. I guess our relationship has been strained at best because of my spending…

 

I know why it happens but it hurts us financially.

I hate how I am the toxic one but know that I care deeply for him, I just don’t show it in the most appropriate way. Plus the whole meeting and gaining new friends, is a bust. If I don’t know and we haven’t talked in a long way etc; then it’s hard for me to even open up and if I open up because you invited me to and if there are problems, I expect people to treat me like an adult and actually talk to ME about it instead of talking about me behind my back to someone else.

I’m not unapproachable, in fact, I’ll probably-more than likely understand better than you realize because sometimes I don’t recognize or realize how I’m hurting people but if I’m told then, hell, I’ll do my best not to do it again and acknowledge it. Hell, I’m willing to learn and take in valid criticism for my behavior as I know I’m not for everyone, but to be nice to my face is a lie and hurts worse. Stop hiding behind the word friendship and be honest for once. This is just a general vent and frustration from me dealing with other people in real life and online. Not really directed to those that care much as it’s already done.

Weight loss transformation

Also cut off my mother. Done with her antics, honestly and it’s the best decision of my life.


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4 months ago

Things are starting to open back up here in NS as well. Mostly outdoor things. And we are allowed to join up with another household now (or two-family bubble, as they call it). Knowing why something happens is the first step to learning to deal with it and overcome it, it’s a step forward. I find it hard making friends. I do have a good small group of friends but they live in the city so we don’t see each other more than a few times a year, it sucks. I find it hard to open up to people too. Looks like you are doing well on the weight loss! Go girl 🙂

4 months ago

Girl you look great! I am going to be moving to Texas soon. So exciting. I didn’t know you are in Texas.

4 months ago

Cute looks:)

4 months ago

Things are opening back up where I live also, but I am glad that you are glad about going back to work. I hope things get better, and the pictures look great.

3 months ago

Hello Michelle!
Blog hopping!
Hope you’re doing fine 🙂

3 months ago

Wow girl, you are making slow and steady progress. You are already looking real good. XD ♥
I’m sorry your struggling with your husband and your spending issue. I have a bit of a problem with that as well. I have to really watch what I spend so I ended up DL an app on my phone to help me monitor just how much I’m spending and how much I need to have in bank for bills and other things.