Clear Tears

It’s been awhile, and I understand that’s it’s been hard on me, but I’m trying to understand the few things in my life that are still under my control. I’ll have to update you all, on everything that’s been going on with my world.

I meant to post this blog entry sooner but I’ve just been missing in action a lot, and I don’t like that, but that’s how it has been due to a lot of different factors going on. Lately, my anger issues were coming up to the top and threatening my relationship with my husband, and since I got off a previous med due to it causing me to overheat and nearly pass out, I decided, well my psychiatric nurse practitioner decided to up my mood stabilizer, Lamaictal. I have to watch out for the rash of course, which is the deadly allergic reaction it but so far, so good, and besides, I don’t feel so angry anymore.

Plus on the 8th of August, it was my 32nd birthday! Husband, Jose, treated me and despite me being on a strict diet of protein, vegetables etc; and avoiding carbs along with sugar, because my bariatric surgery is soon to be approved and me to start planning when I want the surgery within this year, but yes, he treated me to some anime goodies at my favorite anime shop up in Addison, Anime Pop! 

My gifts! Then, the whole therapist thing didn’t work out and somehow, I’m scrambling to address the anger(which was flowing out of me due to having no real choice for my health) and trauma due to overwhelming me and making it just more difficult to function, though work is going great! I passed one year with my job, Tom Thumb, and soon about to get a raise of 30 cents or more cents, so I’ll go from 11.10 to 11.45, so I’m excited about that!

Then my surgery is coming up on the 24th, and I’m excited and both terrified by this. Wish me luck!