I would write more but a tragedy has struck me and my family: at least the family I recognize that has always been there for me.
Lost someone so important to me then the only friend I have in real life will be gone soon and I know I cannot make him stay as it has a calling and it needs to be fufilled, still this came at a worst time.
She was a real mother figure to me and we bonded because I was great (still am) with her son and then they friendship was great.
We did a lot together and she always tried to help me in any capacity and always was so kind. I remember the first time we talked, it was at a Starbucks while my drink was gross, we talked deeply for an hour almost.
Then we always went swimming and just had a blast a few summers ago.
Still, he son, my great friend told me not to CRY too much.
Why does he worry about me when he lost someone important? I don’t understand his selflessness and sweetness.
I don’t deserve any of this. This kindness can shove it.
Still, I was extremely lucky to have met and shared some of my life with her which I won’t forget.
Loss makes us appreciate all that we have and reminds us to be kind and loving to each other.
Two deaths in less than a year.
My heart cannot take it but it will continually happen.
That is life
That is loss
My heart cannot take it all and yet…
I wrote her something
And it was then
That I was shown
Appreciated the ephemeral life
What couldn’t be said
Words often falter when
Confronted by the squall of life
But thank you for gracing the world’s stage
And while the loss loves
The despair and destruction
The turmoil is what allows us
To laugh , to sob
To be us
And now the kindness goes towards you
Brushing back the tangling tears
Was all I hated to do
You said goodbye
While hellos reverberated
And telling you those thank yous
Aren’t a hopeless endeavor
As my eyes are wide open and
I thank you,
For whatever life you had
I loved it