Does Loss Mean More?

Posted on May 28th, 2018 in Blog, Writings by Michelle. 6 Comments

I would write more but a tragedy has struck me and my family: at least the family I recognize that has always been there for me.

Lost someone so important to me then the only friend I have in real life will be gone soon and I know I cannot make him stay as it has a calling and it needs to be fufilled, still this came at a worst time.
She was a real mother figure to me and we bonded because I was great (still am) with her son and then they friendship was great.
We did a lot together and she always tried to help me in any capacity and always was so kind. I remember the first time we talked, it was at a Starbucks while my drink was gross, we talked deeply for an hour almost.

Then we always went swimming and just had a blast a few summers ago.

Still, he son, my great friend told me not to CRY too much.
Why does he worry about me when he lost someone important? I don’t understand his selflessness and sweetness.

I don’t deserve any of this. This kindness can shove it.

Still, I was extremely lucky to have met and shared some of my life with her which I won’t forget.

Loss makes us appreciate all that we have and reminds us to be kind and loving to each other.

Two deaths in less than a year.
My heart cannot take it but it will continually happen.

That is life
That is loss

My heart cannot take it all and yet…

I wrote her something


And it was then
That I was shown
Appreciated the ephemeral life
You had

What couldn’t be said
Words often falter when
Confronted by the squall of life

But thank you for gracing the world’s stage

And while the loss loves
The despair and destruction
The turmoil is what allows us
To laugh , to sob
To be us

And now the kindness goes towards you
Brushing back the tangling tears
Letting go

Was all I hated to do
You said goodbye
While hellos reverberated
to nothingness

And telling you those thank yous
Aren’t a hopeless endeavor
As my eyes are wide open and
I thank you,
For the life you had
I loved it

What a lovely poem. I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my grandpa earlier this month due to a number of things –pneumonia, renal failure, and cardiac arrest.
It’s so sad that it’s sudden and it seems like you couldn’t do anything about it. All you could do is just hope and pray that they’re in a better place.

Posted on June 2nd, 2018, at 6:21 AM by Sakura.

I’m sorry to hear that. Please accept my deepest condolences for your family’s loss. 🙁

Posted on June 2nd, 2018, at 2:15 PM by Claudine.

I’m so sorry for your loss, Michelle 🙁 I cried while reading your poem because I lost my pet last month, so the pain is still really fresh in my mind and heart.

Sometimes I feel like I’ve started moving on but sometimes we see something that remind us of the times we shared with them, and the emotions keep flowing back. It’s really hard to lose someone you love, but all we can do is keep their memories in our hearts and remember that their lives have changed ours for the better <3

Posted on June 3rd, 2018, at 12:04 AM by Megan.

First, I’m so sorry… *hugs* It always hurts to lose someone…if you need someone to talk to feel free to contact me.

Its so sweet her son is worried about you though. And what you wrote….just beautiful.

Posted on June 6th, 2018, at 12:53 PM by Ongaku.

What a beautiful poem. ♥ I’m very sorry for your loss. *hugs*

Posted on June 8th, 2018, at 6:55 PM by Kenny.

My deepest condolences, Michelle. <3 I'm sorry for your loss.