It’s been a great while, okay, maybe not a total while but a lot of things have changed like my whole new streak of not hurting myself. Yes, I’ve been dealing with the urges even hurting myself eventually while that was mired in a lot of emotions and impulses, I’ve been better for it. I do know those sorts of feelings do past and that I can get over them. I can and will do my best.
Every day is a victory for me, one step to managing something I will have for the rest of my life while that can sound like a terrible burden (at times it feels like it), it gives me grit and resolve to be myself even in the face of mental illness. I don’t normally talk about it mostly on my blog anymore since people think I’m “whining” when in actuality it has filled all of the holes in my life and people can be ignorant that mental illness can’t do that when it does. I’ve changed from an independent working girl full of life now to a shivering mess of a person. All because of abuse. Remember that things like this can have lasting effects on children and if you don’t believe them (which happened to me) then it makes the stigma worse.
I recently switched to a new Smartwatch, one that is tied to a phone service and has its own number but we don’t use it at all, in fact, it’s pretty awesome! It’s called the ZTE Quartz and while I don’t have my own pictures of it, I can assure you that you can change watch faces with loads of other features: weather, health, time, watch faces, calling, texting, receiving calls and texts.