Flowers Breathe In The Air
It’s been a long while since I’ve updated but I’ve been so swamped with work and since I’m a cashier for a grocery store, I’ve become essential and that’s put a lot of strain on me, already full of issues and trauma more than most people. I’ve been trying to be strong but I caved and self harmed three times in just three weeks and finally decided to fix my mental health by finally taking my grief after losing my therapist, my social worker, and contacting another one and I’ll be talking to them; and with work bringing me to tears all the time, I was finally sat down by my store manager and assistant managers as they were worried about me.
So, I’m going to do FMLA for my work, which is FAMILY MEDICAL LEAVE ACT. Apparently, my company is an employee owned (WinCo) and despite being part time, I’m gonna try for a month and a half and without being paid and not losing my job, I need time to focus on me. I just need to be well again. I need time to shift through this pandemic as it caused a lot of my plans to be dropped or halted for the time being like having kids, or starting the process.


Then I got into the Ace Attorney series =) Plus been playing that along with Final Fantasy VII Remake and Animal Crossing New Horizons. It’s been great!

You look great with your new hair and glasses❤
I’m so sorry to hear about everything you have been going through and hope that the break is what you need to feel better and heal.
I hope things will be better for you soon. God be with you.
That’s a tough decision to make but I am glad that you are taking some time off and concentrating on your mental health. You’ve had such a rough go of it lately and the COVID situation I am sure is not helping. I am very happy to hear that you have found a therapist and hope that they help you sort some things out. As for the cutting/self-harm maybe try finding a new hobby that you can do when you feel like self-harming? Something new and unassociated with anything that you already do maybe? Just a thought. I haven’t self-harmed since I was in my 20’s but I remember the feelings surrounding it. Dealing with those feelings is the best way, find something else that gives you the good feelings you get from it, and of course, dealing with the negative emotions is necessary as well to help you understand, learn to cope, and eventually stop harming yourself. If you ever need to talk I am here.
As always, you’re gorgeous, Michelle.
I’m sorry that you’re having a tough time at work. It’s not good for anyone right now. 🙁 I hope the time off helps. 🙂