My relationship with my mom is no more because honestly, she got mad about changing and canceling her service with T-mobile when she was on our plan. The deal was she wanted to only spend 30 when her bill with us was 45, so she was trying to take advantage of us in short like she always does and thinks she’s entitled to things again like she always is. She always expects everyone to bend to her will and if they don’t, she throws a fit. She called me a bitch because I was worried about billing for the cell service and also the fact she was not prioritizing what needed to be done and filling it with excuses and she wanted to be with her married boyfriend. She defines herself as a person that needs a man to be complete and thus puts high expectations in people she’s dating and thus she can never find anyone. She wants the guys to pay her money every month and it’s unheard of, really because what’s wrong with her? And she’s with a married man and has been for 16 years and yet, she is miserable but can’t let go. In the end, she grated on my nerves about her problems being top priority and I remember when I called her after my car accident and she was like, “okay.” that’s not the response that mothers should have about their children in terrible situations. She’s lacking in maternal instinct and she’s told me that before but oh well.
Sure, she has gone through a lot in her life but it doesn’t mean that she should take it out on me or my little brother and in the end, she will be alone because she’s pushed us all away and it’s not our fault. We’ve tried to be good children and take her abuse but in the end, it’s goodbye forever. I don’t intend to let her make contact with me again just because she’s “lonely.” as I intend to stick to my guns and not talk to her for a long time, maybe forever. In the end, it’s over with me and her and this vicious cycle is done.
New look on the blog by the lovely Cristina of Lovemore,and the artists have been credited but of course, I commissioned these pieces so, yeah.
I fought with my husband again because though I am bad with money, we really had none because of the high electricity bill and the plan we were on for our electricity; But don’t worry, I fixed it with the help of my mother before she stopped talking to me. So, I’ve been spending little here and there but it finally came to a head because I want to bring back the allowance and promised to be better without spending over and besides, it isn’t my entire fault with money, it’s just that I think accumulating it doesn’t do any good since it is worthless as it’s not backed by anything and I tend to spend without abandon, in the end, we squared it away.
Dealing with my bacterial infection still, but it’s going away with the second round of antibiotics and hopefully it clears soon. I am just tired of being sick for so long and neglecting a lot of things and it sucks because my husband is quite lazy and I’m being lazy but don’t worry, I’m doing the most important chores there are, so that’s fine.I am still alive and that’s the important thing so far and I’m trying to be happy and pursue that happiness in my life despite a lot of it being in the wrong most of the time.
Listening to (artists): Daoko, Wednesday Campanella, Bolbbalgan4, Neon Bunny,
MoT, Monni, Belanova, Fiona Fung, Shoji Meguro, Shandy Gan,
Playing: Hatoful Boyfriend, Kingdom Hearts HD Final Mix, Persona 5