It seems that WordPress’ main editor has changed drastically and it’s a pain to figure it all out, honestly but I am doing it. What’s changed in my neck of the woods? Mostly been spending time with my friends on Instagram as opposed to Facebook and whatnot. It’s been a crazy existence honestly with Christmas coming up and the end of the year really just here. How did the time go by so fast? I already remember my time at Thanksgiving and how mom ruined the ham but at least I got leftovers from my
They barely tolerate me and give me shitty gifts every year but at least we do secret santa with the adults and always give gifts to the kids: my niece and two nephews. I mean, it couldn’t be worse than
I already got the whole, “You look like a boy” from my mother and how “Dare” I cut my own hair to be short? I hate that gender norms make it difficult to be yourself in a world of such a binary existence but we’re learning much that there is no such thing as binary genders and that sex and gender are so different. I’m glad I’m living in a time where I can apply these changes to myself though I do worry that I’ll be bullied for it but it’s whatever, honestly. I think we should be allowed to be our own person but as long as we’re not hurting anyone or ourselves, it should be free reign. I just never understood why being yourself is so terrible but whatever. I’ll continue to push those boundaries and be myself through it all.
Christmas is coming up and I’m not prepared for it as my family including my
I know I’m not the most functional person despite my reasoning why I don’t wanna be functional…Maybe because I genuinely don’t believe it’s possible for me? You can’t ever get out of the cycle of self-loathing and just plain pain but it can be managed and the severity of it done away. but do I want that? Those are questions that I have to constantly ask myself but I don’t wanna face it anymore. I don’t wanna seem like I can and do have the answers.
Well have a happy holidays and a Merry Christmas…I’ll try <3