It has been so difficult to avoid soda and sugar in general as I never knew that it is everywhere! How is that so? Geez But I am fulfilling my goal but I know it will take time to lose the weight and it helps to exercise despite it being humid and raining all the time. Almost 3 weeks of rain off and on plus sometimes back to back but I don’t hate it because Texas is always in a drought. Always. Every summer this drought comes in but I do understand with the heat index of being over 100 F which was plain ridiculous, honestly. I wish that Texas wasn’t so plain hot like this and even if I try to move, which I have done, I always come back to Texas because it’s home and I was born here. It’s home while it has its faults I keep loving it. I keep appreciating this state.
Slowly the years go by and I’m wondering even wishing why it happens this way and while death can scare me it doesn’t hold a candle to not living to forget that we have one life. We have one way to live and while things are difficult for me with me sometimes cursing my existence and having the worst self-esteem possible I am grateful to live and breathe because life is beautiful. I remember reading about a man’s final words being “Life is so beautiful.” or something like that and that has struck and stayed with me despite the rough moments in my life. It has been a wild ride from 18 to now 29 but I’m grateful for my husband Jose and my ESA Marley and anyone that has touched my life in a positive and negative way as I can mature through those times.
It’s sappy I know but it’s how I’ve been thinking lately and whether or not it’s false or even nonsense it has been just for me. It just has been wonderful for me despite the agony in my heart with physical conditions and even mental ones.
I managed to cut my hair again to a pixie cut and I’m grateful but there are a lot of things that I have to work on while being so difficult I know I can do it.
Happy 16th anniversary to Kingdom Hearts released in America on September 17th, 2002
You’ve changed my life for the better and I’m holding to the greatest memories I’ve had from childhood. The only ones that carry me through the suffering. The one that made me smile and laugh the hardest.
“When you walk away
You don’t hear me say,
“Please, oh baby, don’t go.”
Simple and clean is the way that you’re making me feel tonight
It’s hard to let it go…”