A few things have been going on: I’m sick with Bronchitis again, and I finally go a job at Walmart. The story is I applied for the job at a job resource center and got the call the next day. I’ll be cashiering at night and while there is some concern to get me there, there is a kind of transportation system for disabled people like myself, so I’ll be applying for it and on my way; First I have to get through the background check and whatnot before I’ll start, because orientation is going to be excruciatingly boring and probably so tedious but it has to be done. I really took this job for the only reason to help pay bills in order to get ready for a family.
I don’t really want to wait until my schooling is over or 2019 when my IUD comes out, and honestly, I’m worrying about age since I am 27 and 30 is right around the corner, plus almost every other friend is pregnant and honestly, my greatest wish is to be a mother. I know how old fashion that sounds but I never had grand plans for myself or a future I was willing to take, but honestly, having a family will make me feel complete. I guess never really growing up a good family never gave me ideas about any dreams, but ever since getting married and falling in love, things really have changed. Funny, how a single moment can forever transform a person and funny how one person can help this transformation along.
Also, it’s a sense of independence for me and learning responsibility again, which I lost to my mental illness. Schizoaffective Disorder really stops and hinders a person but I will do my best to do the things I want.
But oh, I went to my dog mom’s Halloween party and enjoyed the hell out of it. I dressed up as Sakura Kinomoto from Card Captor Sakura. Quite fun, really.
Besides this sickness, moods have stabilized and no thoughts of impulse spending have come to mind, honestly. I guess Latuda is working and the fact that I can get restful sleep is great. I couldn’t ask for anything better than my health and happiness. I guess this is in a part of something that I wanted all along but couldn’t have because of various circumstances. I guess life is tricky like that sometimes and full of unwanted surprises.
The party pictures:
The food <3 Hummus and funeral cakes are included!
Just some props but I did get my fortune read in the Tarot cards. Hmm
Roxie as the Watermelon fairy
Sage as a ladybug