Let’s Take It From The Top

Posted on October 16th, 2016 in Blog, pictures, Uncategorized by Michelle. 11 Comments

A few things have been going on: I’m sick with Bronchitis again, and I finally go a job at Walmart. The story is I applied for the job at a job resource center and got the call the next day. I’ll be cashiering at night and while there is some concern to get me there, there is a kind of transportation system for disabled people like myself, so I’ll be applying for it and on my way; First I have to get through the background check and whatnot before I’ll start, because orientation is going to be excruciatingly boring and probably so tedious but it has to be done. I really took this job for the only reason to help pay bills in order to get ready for a family.

I don’t really want to wait until my schooling is over or 2019 when my IUD comes out, and honestly, I’m worrying about age since I am 27 and 30 is right around the corner, plus almost every other friend is pregnant and honestly, my greatest wish is to be a mother. I know how old fashion that sounds but I never had grand plans for myself or a future I was willing to take, but honestly, having a family will make me feel complete. I guess never really growing up a good family never gave me ideas about any dreams, but ever since getting married and falling in love, things really have changed. Funny, how a single moment can forever transform a person and funny how one person can help this transformation along.

Also, it’s a sense of independence for me and learning responsibility again, which I lost to my mental illness. Schizoaffective Disorder really stops and hinders a person but I will do my best to do the things I want.

But oh, I went to my dog mom’s Halloween party and enjoyed the hell out of it. I dressed up as Sakura Kinomoto from Card Captor Sakura. Quite fun, really.

Besides this sickness, moods have stabilized and no thoughts of impulse spending have come to mind, honestly. I guess Latuda is working and the fact that I can get restful sleep is great. I couldn’t ask for anything better than my health and happiness. I guess this is in a part of something that I wanted all along but couldn’t have because of various circumstances. I guess life is tricky like that sometimes and full of unwanted surprises.

The party pictures:


The food <3 Hummus and funeral cakes are included!

Just some props but I did get my fortune read in the Tarot cards. Hmm

Roxie as the Watermelon fairy

Sage as a ladybug

Some decorations


Congrats on getting the job! Sorry to hear you’re sick with Bronchitis though. Feel better soon!

I don’t think it’s old fashion to want to be a mother. I feel like having children and a family is still something that people want and look forward to. It may not be for everyone, but there are definitely people who still really want it. It also seems pretty common now for people to have children later in their life, after they’ve done a bunch of things they wanted to first. 30 doesn’t have to be a deadline!

The Halloween party looks like it was fun!

Posted on October 17th, 2016, at 11:15 PM by Brice.

Sorry to hear about your Bronchitis. I hope you feel better. Congratulations on the Walmart job. I knew you would find one. It just took some time. Eventually someone would hire you. I hope you get the transportation system for disabled people. It would be so much easier for you. At night, the bus would run far apart here depending on the area.

As you know life is hard, but we still can make the best of it. I wasn’t looking forward to turning 30, but hey what can you do? At least you have your husband by your side. Not everyone has a companion human or animal.

Posted on October 18th, 2016, at 12:42 AM by Cassidy.

I’m so happy that you got a job! I’m sorry that you’ve been sick and I hope you feel better soon!

I think it is very noble that you want to become a mother. It is really cool to see parents give their all for their kids. I’m not sure if being a mother is part of the plan for me but I’m open to it. I’m only 20 so I have time ๐Ÿ˜‰

It looks you had a great time the Halloween party. It’s nice to be able to spend some time with friends, whether human or dog.

I’m so happy that you’re feeling better and your medication is working. I know how hard it is to find something that works.

Posted on October 18th, 2016, at 4:49 AM by Pim.

Congratulations on getting the Walmart job ๐Ÿ™‚
Hope you feel better from your bronchitis ๐Ÿ™

Posted on October 18th, 2016, at 9:09 AM by Alison.

Hope you are feeling better now and congrats on the job. You still feel young inside no matter how old you are! That party looks fab

Posted on October 18th, 2016, at 11:22 PM by Maroon Caludin.

Congrats on getting the job! I know how hard it can be to get one and it can get so frustrating, so congrats!

Posted on October 19th, 2016, at 9:06 PM by Clint.

Aw. I hope you well soon. Congrats on your new job. I hope you get whatever that you need in regards to transportation. ๐Ÿ™‚

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Posted on October 20th, 2016, at 4:20 PM by Ella.

Congratulations on the new job! You will be fine, everything will work out, just as it is now. Being a mother is also a dream of mine, I’m just not sure if for me it will happen. I’m in my 30’s and God knows I’ve tired. I hope one day you become a mom. The party looks like it was a lot of fun. The decor and the food. The dog is adorable. Keep looking up because things are about to get better for you. ๐Ÿ™‚

Posted on October 22nd, 2016, at 10:38 AM by Lucy.

Congratulations on the new job – I hope it (and the transport) work out for you. I’m sorry to hear your sick at the momeny but it’s also good to hear that your medication is working
I hope the positive trend continues for you ๐Ÿ™‚

Posted on October 23rd, 2016, at 7:24 AM by Adrianne.

As you already know, congrats on the new job.

Age is nothing but a number. You should feel lucky that you already have a husband and that you are still young and fertile (if that’s the correct word?) to have children. I don’t know a lot about mental illnesses and such that may affect pregnancy, but I do hope things do get better for you in the near future.

I’m no longer in my 30s, as you know, and I am still single, no boyfriend. My parents at first were getting worried about me not finding a man or that I’m a lesbian (I am neither LOL) when I reached my 30s, but in the long run, they really don’t care anymore, realizing they have three other hopefuls (my siblings) who can provide them with grandchildren. Right, right. I no longer care for my other “old-fashioned” relatives ridiculing me for being single at this age. If I end up dying an old maid, then so be it.

The Ouija board! Didn’t know they still exist. ^^

Posted on October 23rd, 2016, at 10:55 AM by Jan.

This is such a great update from you. Congratulations on getting a Job at Wal-mart and it’s great that they’ll help you with the transport. And I’m really happy to hear that Latuda is working.

Best of Wishes to you in your planning of creating a beautiful family that you can call your own. โ™ฅ And yeah, time is running out. I’ll be 30 at the end of the year, and still no kids.