Posted on January 18th, 2020 in blog
Work has been great despite the constant working and just moving around, but I made a good friend! His name is Alex and he’s awesome! This is great because I feel like at my age, it’s just difficult to make true friends and hopefully, it can still happen. That I can connect with others and that my Borderline Personality Disorder
isn’t some sort of isolating death sentence. I hate how it has defined me greatly, as I know what’s keeping be back, being myself mostly.
Had to switch hosts for awhile because Iceglow hosting is gone due to the costs of Cpanel going up and me switching to Namecheap for a bit as I didn’t like anywhere else that I went; So basically the same for at least a year. Sorry for not updating for a bit but, work and life had gotten the best out of me and it sucks sometimes. Then the worst happen to my therapist and my mother just casually says I should get a new one, why? Because the one I care about and has helped through 2012 is in the hospital? My mother is callous to the extreme and that doesn’t change ever but in the end, I’m awaiting and hoping my therapist gets better.
Then it was my dearly departed cousin’s birthday. Miss her like hell.
Me and her, R.I.P
Then I took the long hair that I was growing for nearly 5 months and cut it into like a bob and got new glasses for the first time this year. My eyes got worse, sadly thanks to my astigmatism and so my prescription had to be upped considerably. Here’s me and I’m not trying to be too vain but I do like the way that my body is changing due to my weight loss and just in general. It takes a lot of work and more.
my new look and new glasses
Then Friday, and even on Monday (this upcoming week), I’ll be talking to many doctors including my high risk pregnancy doctor along with my Nurse Practitioner about getting pregnant by the end of the year and hopefully weaning off the medicine that held me together. and getting on some that can be considered safe for the pregnancy once, I get pregnant as I can’t with my IUD. Still, knowing that my aunt is going with me along with my husband is just great. This is something I gotta work on and even then, I’m glad that some sort of my family believes in me even if my mother disapproves me and so does my mother in law. Why can’t they see beyond my diagnosis’s? I’m still a human being underneath it all.
Anyhow, here’s some photos from Christmas 2019
Jose and I <3