I didn’t see my younger brother or even go to his graduation…I guess I’m not close to him like I thought because I didn’t matter in the end. I just didn’t matter from someone that I literally and had no choice in raising because of my single mother and her damn narcissism which equaled a lot of abuse in various ways minus sexually of course, yet, still, that stings. Oh well, I won’t be talking to him for awhile because I am not worth anything to him, and that saddens me greatly.
I do remember when my parents took him home, and yet, he treats me like garbage, like the rest of my family.
I finished a few games in the down time:
(which I have to continually play over to get the right/true ending)
Christmas and Christmas Eve were nightmares but luckily, that is over now, and that I can focus on the things that matter like fulfilling life long goals and just doing better-as much as I can because a lot has changed for the better and I even frankly asked my husband if things have changed with me and he said yes, and knowing that I am trying helps a lot too.
Yeah, also seeing my orthodontist Monday in regards to braces but most of the day is booked with helping my nana get her Chocolate Lab Sarge fixed, to seeing my therapist, and getting my eye exam done because it is time to get them, and I think this time, I was ask for scratch resistant lenses even if we have to pay extra for it, I don’t care because I always scratch up my lenses pretty badly and I could benefit from this, extremely so.
My New Years’ Resolutions, which is extremely easy but something that I always work on regardless of a new year, but it puts it into perspective, honestly.
To be honest, last year…I just survived it all; the tragedy in my personal and family life.