It has been a busy last week for me. I’ve managed to see my therapist and though things have changed with me, I still managed to have a good session and we’re going to three weeks instead of a month, just in case-but my psychiatrist on the other hand managed to bump up my anti-depressant to help with the added anxiety I’ve been having since the ordeal but I gotta be careful when I’m on this time for sure. There is a chance that I might strongly react negatively to the new dose and will get manic and that is why I gotta watch myself very carefully. But all in all, the benefits out rank the risks.
Then terrible news came to light in the family and I worry about my second cousin because of it, but I know that everything will be all right in the end, but I’m conflicted on how to feel towards my aunt. In one way, it’s not her fault but then it’s her fault for not taking her meds and systematically cutting everyone out of her life(including her own children) and harassing everyone, and the other way I was tired of being treated like I some kind of liar and everything else by her when none of it was true and I should be happy that she’s getting help finally but I worry that it won’t be enough and it’s too late.
Also lately, things haven’t been going well with other people and myself. I’m doing all that I can to cope but I’m at my breaking point here and it sucks that it has to come from people I love. That’s why I think I’m conflicted about my aunt and etc;
I just hope everything will be all right in the family. And I managed to spend some time with my mother which is always a blast and enjoyable. She helped me get a book for one of my upcoming college classes(I won’t register for them until the 19th but one class is mandatory for new students)which I am forever grateful for!
The weekend was amazing! I had a party Friday with some friends that included card games, computer games, swimming, food, and just awesome times. I almost thought that no one wanted to show up but I was wrong. That’s a big fear in me but I was proven wrong and realized I should trust my friends a bit better. This party was a combination party meaning that it was two parties in one. A newlywed party for my recently married friend and a regular party but either way, it was a success and the next party is my birthday on August 8th.
Then on Saturday, went to the lake with family but it was a dozy at first because we weren’t sure on where we were going but luckily, we got it all straightened out and had a blast there. We stayed from 11am-4:30pm which is a fair amount of time honestly.
Then on Sunday I rested which was a good thing because I was so exhausted! So much so that I ended up sleeping for most of the day. I needed that extra rest because the previous night before hand, I didn’t fall asleep much.