Open Weekend

Posted on July 15th, 2013 in Blog, Uncategorized by Michelle. 6 Comments

It has been a busy last week for me. I’ve managed to see my therapist and though things have changed with me, I still managed to have a good session and we’re going to three weeks instead of a month, just in case-but my psychiatrist on the other hand managed to bump up my anti-depressant to help with the added anxiety I’ve been having since the ordeal but I gotta be careful when I’m on this time for sure. There is a chance that I might strongly react negatively to the new dose and will get manic and that is why I gotta watch myself very carefully. But all in all, the benefits out rank the risks.

Then terrible news came to light in the family and I worry about my second cousin because of it, but I know that everything will be all right in the end, but I’m conflicted on how to feel towards my aunt. In one way, it’s not her fault but then it’s her fault for not taking her meds and systematically cutting everyone out of her life(including her own children) and harassing everyone, and the other way I was tired of being treated like I some kind of liar and everything else by her when none of it was true and I should be happy that she’s getting help finally but I worry that it won’t be enough and it’s too late.

Also lately, things haven’t been going well with other people and myself. I’m doing all that I can to cope but I’m at my breaking point here and it sucks that it has to come from people I love. That’s why I think I’m conflicted about my aunt and etc;

I just hope everything will be all right in the family. And I managed to spend some time with my mother which is always a blast and enjoyable. She helped me get a book for one of my upcoming college classes(I won’t register for them until the 19th but one class is mandatory for new students)which I am forever grateful for!

The weekend was amazing! I had a party Friday with some friends that included card games, computer games, swimming, food, and just awesome times. I almost thought that no one wanted to show up but I was wrong. That’s a big fear in me but I was proven wrong and realized I should trust my friends a bit better. This party was a combination party meaning that it was two parties in one. A newlywed party for my recently married friend and a regular party but either way, it was a success and the next party is my birthday on August 8th.

Then on Saturday, went to the lake with family but it was a dozy at first because we weren’t sure on where we were going but luckily, we got it all straightened out and had a blast there. We stayed from 11am-4:30pm which is a fair amount of time honestly.

Then on Sunday I rested which was a good thing because I was so exhausted! So much so that I ended up sleeping for most of the day. I needed that extra rest because the previous night before hand, I didn’t fall asleep much.

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Things are finally looking up for us it seems! No more stressful situations nearing the middle of month for food and what not. I mean seriously – it was nice having my own apartment and away from my dad’s girlfriend but still it was very hard to survive and not get on people’s nerves and what not. But I don’t have to worry about that stressful situation any longer. I have people who actually would like to help out.

I may end up getting a non-smart phone soon. I’m doing some heavy duty thinking about it. My boyfriend claims it’ll be weird seeing me with out one, but I just want to save more money than what I have been and I’m still doing research so who knows what the future will hold. I’ll keep you up-to-date on my decision. :). But yeah, I want to be better prepared next time if and when I do have to move out again. I’ll be ready to live happy. But I don’t think that will happen *knock on wood*.

Posted on July 17th, 2013, at 3:44 AM by Kris.

I must say I’m not surprised how you are taking the ordeal (with the evil guy who stole your 3ds right), and I think it’s good that your therapist is helping.

What’s wrong with your cousin? Did you aunt hurt him/her?

It kind of sucks when the people you love are your conflicts. I know that feeling well because atm I’m not getting along with either one of my brothers, or my mothers, but that’s usual while my brothers are not.

I hope things will be better for us. That’s great you had a good weekend!

Posted on July 19th, 2013, at 2:38 PM by Alice.

I think it’s nice that you have a therapist to, well, help you resolve some issues. I had to read your previous entry first to know the reason behind your appointment with the shrink. Personally, I think people who know they’re in trouble and they really seek out for real help are “cool” people (cool being the lack of adjective I can use and find)… because I’m not in the condition where I can actually trust someone about my own psychological issue. But yeah, glad that your therapist is there to help you out.

Things are not going smooth for me either. Hah, what am I saying.. I think I’m already at “the” breaking point where I’m too numb and tired to even say out loud about what I’m feeling…pissed, for example. Sigh. Life sure is shitty sometimes, lol. Oh well, good luck to solving everything! πŸ™‚ and yes, go get some sleep~ *here’s an advice from a 17 year old who always sleeps at 3 dawn* haha

Posted on July 21st, 2013, at 1:13 AM by Christa.

You have to look at it as trying to get help is better then never reaching out for help. You’re right it may be too late, but at least she’s getting help now.

Posted on July 22nd, 2013, at 9:09 PM by Becca.

That is really nice that she bought you a textbook that you needed – textbooks are so expensive. I’m dreading buying mine next week. I’m waiting until I get paid so I can actually pay for them. Oh… being a broke college student. πŸ™

I’m glad you had such a great weekend! It looked like a lot of fun. πŸ™‚

Posted on July 27th, 2013, at 9:48 PM by Melissa.

I think it’s nice that you have a therapist who helps you resolve some issues. I think it a good thing we have them out there! Hope your issues will be over as soon as possible.

It’s a good thing you had a great weekend! You seem to had a lot of fun at the party. πŸ™‚