By the time that I finish this, it will already be school time. College. My third semester. 9 hours every semester. I hope to finish in less than 5 years. Is it doable? I hope so. I’m so far juggling this with some precaution, I had some trouble last time near the end of the semester with my depression, in not wanting to do my work, but luckily I got past the depression and finished my courses with B’s and a C. Since my birthday ended, and school is coming alongside the corner, I’ve given my husband permission (not really. I enjoy this holiday so much) to decorate already for Halloween. He’s big into the holiday and so we’ve already started. I’ll certainly put up pictures when he’s done with the whole Halloween process, as it’s going to be amazing.
How am I doing on the home front? A lot better, a lot of progress was/is made everyday, but there are some days that are dark, and some days I hurt, but those days don’t come close to before. I managed to spend time with my best friend Ashley for dinner. It was a very nice experience as she drove us both around Dallas and beyond. I just missed those days so much, with some endlessness, and so much wandering. So much happiness and then it being taken away. I’ve come to some conclusion for myself, that I as a person is not Bipolar, but rather it is a disorder that I have. I refuse it to describe myself as that anymore, I am so much more than my disorder. I am still the same person I was, just more clouded, but now that is no longer a problem, I am back.