I Need Romance Again

Sorry, I scared everyone with my previous entry, but honestly that was how I was feeling and I was trying to stay close to my feelings. I’m trying to be honest with myself no matter what but I thank everyone that was kind and nice to me. That, I really appreciated it. No one had to be but everyone did and so I thank you all. To go on with business, do I feel the same? Nope, nope, and nope. How come? My medicine and I took a ride with my best friend(whom I haven’t seen in a long time) and it was glorious. It was like old times and we just talked about a lot of things and it just sort of made me feel better…also I went out alone without Jose, my husband. That was nice for once. I love him but I always go out with him but it was nice to see what I could do alone which wasn’t much but still…

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Posted on December 1st, 2013 in Blog, Uncategorized by Michelle. 7 Comments

What They Sing

So this past weekend and week, I’ve been in rough shape. I kind of forgot about life and forgot that being hysterical isn’t good at all. I forgot that life is worth living despite the pain and had some close calls meaning that I tried to cut or wanted to. It’s a horrible sensation and a horrible way to live but luckily, the last two days have been better. I’ve been getting calls from friends and just well wishers in general. I’m scared that my meds for my depression aren’t working so I’ll have to go to my psychiatrist Friday. I missed my appointment on the 1st and I feel stupid about it, but it wasn’t my fault. I just plum forgot. I guess it happens to the best of us. But I know I’m stronger than any of that and it’s not easy to realize that when you’re in trouble and panicking. It’s never easy but I know I don’t want to give up on life. I want to keep going no matter what.

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Posted on November 10th, 2013 in Blog, Uncategorized by Michelle. 8 Comments