Quiet Stars Don’t Run Away

So, I have been sick with cold or allergies or maybe a combination of both? I don’t know, but I do know that it has been making me feel very crummy like and the fact that I couldn’t do much but sleep has been terribly awful. Though I managed to self sabotage again with spending money for things I didn’t need, but at the core, I’m stuck again with hating happiness and being in a very healthy relationship. I wished my mother a happy birthday and that was it. I know I don’t say much to her, so I don’t expect anything from her anymore when I live only 5 minutes away from her. Whatever, she can’t be bothered to visit and neither can I. Though there are memories of the past that come forward sometimes, I do know that I can’t rely on my memory to get me through anything. Then my new glasses are giving my outer ear a small rash but don’t worry, it is fine now. I’m not used to these new vintage glasses, but in the end, we all become accustomed to the ways of society and of our own bodies.

The beauty comes from the tragedy, pain, and heartache and it’s more amazing when the hope is born from our untangled souls; nothing can stop me from thinking that even there is some silver linings to things even if I don’t want to admit or see them. Yes, I’m alive and was from that car accident in December 2015, but in the end, despite the physical pain I endure and the mental handicaps I go through more, I can greet happiness with my full arms open. I don’t have to let the terror I cast on my own mind from gaining speed, and I will take one day at a time and somehow get better through my own thinking and chanting. I will surround myself with amazing and supportive people that are behind me and aren’t afraid to tell me the whole truth, even if it is staring me in the face. Sometimes you need the truth so bad, so bad that you can’t feel it until someone knocks you out with it.

We are born from the sadness of death, of anguish and made to be something glorious.

Found this on tumblr but it’s so true, isn’t it?
There isn’t a set time or date when we are reborn or rebirth ourselves into something new, into an image of the person we are meant to be. We can achieve all that we want if we just take it and aren’t afraid of rejection are sadness, and that’s what I am afraid of too. The pain is what stops me cold despite my own advice, and I know it to be true that pain is a given in the world, but we can change the amount of pain we will receive and a lot of people don’t realize that. We don’t have to have pain upon pain all the time, but we can slowly envelope ourselves into the light. It doesn’t have to be the sun, but the warmth of our own hearts connecting. You’re never really gone from the world or memories. You are sealed forever in the Earth, and in the stars. We just go back to what birthed us to create another person.

That’s the cycle of life, and a cycle that keeps giving and taking, so don’t be afraid of the moments you can’t grasp, and just take what life gives you now and go with it. Don’t be afraid of possibilities of being selfish and putting yourself first for once, and know that I can be free if I just want to be.

Posted on January 14th, 2017 in Blog, pictures, Uncategorized, Writings by Michelle. 11 Comments

Hope you feel better soon. It sucks to be sick. ๐Ÿ™
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Posted on January 14th, 2017, at 5:10 PM by Sakura.

Get well soon!

Posted on January 14th, 2017, at 5:35 PM by Gom.

Ugh, being sick is the worst. I hope you start feeling better soon! Rest up so that you can get better!

While it’s not easy getting through them, we learn from the hard times and can only grow stronger through them!
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Posted on January 14th, 2017, at 6:00 PM by Becca.

Hi Michelle. Get well from your cold ๐Ÿ˜Š
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Posted on January 14th, 2017, at 8:07 PM by Pim.

Sadly we can sometimes be our worst enemy, but glad to hear you’re working through it!

Lovely quite too! I’ll have to copy that down!

Posted on January 15th, 2017, at 1:47 AM by Maroon Caludin.

Get well soo, dear. Lots of people getting down with colds or flu this time around.

Posted on January 15th, 2017, at 5:31 AM by Tammy.

Hope you feel better soon, Michelle! Iโ€™m battling a cough at the moment โ€“ just got over a cold… sounds like a lot of people I know have a cold at the moment. Itโ€™s weird having one in hot Australia though. ๐Ÿ˜œ

Sometimes the limit of our relationships with some people will just be the fact that we still have the decency to wish something like happy birthday. If thatโ€™s all there will be, that may be all there is to it (for now).
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Posted on January 16th, 2017, at 10:48 AM by Georgie.

Hey Michelle! Sometimes it’s good when you don’t depend on your mother when she does not support you in any way or she does not approve your choices. You are old enough to live and enjoy your own life. I only talk to my mother when it’s important or just to see if she’s fine. Sometimes she does even call me just to see if I’m fine but that’s rare. If you wish your mother a Happy Birthday, it’s something that she should approve because a lot of kids (who live on their own/have moved out) don’t do this anymore. You can care for your mother but only if she does not depend on you or anything. You can live your own life now and it’s not your mother’s fault to put stones on your way just to make it hard for you.
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Posted on January 16th, 2017, at 10:59 AM by Shyre.

Hope you get better soon!

Posted on January 16th, 2017, at 7:21 PM by Chynna.

I hope you are feeling better! Colds/Allergies really suck! Weather is out of control!
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Posted on January 17th, 2017, at 8:34 PM by Ongaku.

Hope you feel better! It seems like a lot of people are feeling a little off lately. Also, great post. ๐Ÿ™‚
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