February goes into March and yet, I’ve made a mess of things with impulsive spending again and hurt ourselves by barely having any money in our account. Why do I do these things? Why do I continually hurt and sabotage all the great things in my life? And right because my husband’s and I’s anniversary on the 9th of March, I do these things. I hope I’ll stop and maybe understand why it’s happening and not ignore this anymore, but regardless, I’ve been feeling quite sluggish and when I mean sluggish, I mean barely able to stay away just within a month and a half recently. I’ve been dizzy and experienced muscle weakness plus, no matter how much sleep I get, I’m exhausted by the middle and even beginning of the day. I sleep so much that I’m not getting enough deep sleep.
Every year, my health insurance (and others): Anthem Blue Cross Blue Shield always makes my husband and I do something called Blueprint for Wellness, and that is basically done at every start of the year and has a deadline of Feb 28 of every year. I basically get a physical plus blood work that tests everything, and I’ve noticed that I’ve gone down from a lot of things like my cholesterol which last year was 202 and now is 175, and even my good cholesterol (LDL) and (HDL) are within normal perimeters, but what gets me is, why I’ve been sluggish and exhausted for nearly two months: I’m anemic and it’s because of two pieces of tests that show low percentages of the oxygen in my red blood cells. I plan on seeing another doctor and addressing this because it’s getting to the point that I can’t do anything. I can barely take care of Marley or get out of bed, and I’m not depressed. I’m just weak.
But I did manage to finish the Zero Escape Series, which was good, and they (Spike Chunsoft) are also the makers of the Danganronpa series (which, I still like better), though Zero Escape is bloody and quite convoluted in every sense of the world. I recommend playing it since it is on PS4 and other systems like DS and whatnot. It’s an escape room visual novel, and you will care and feel compelled to finish the storyline.