The Vision Is Here

Things have been happening…Work and updates!

I got a new job after many months of being unemployed, which is great and it’s at a 99 cent only store-retail honestly and what did I expect of it? I love it, unequivocally as I’ve made friends and friends with the management but don’t think we don’t and I don’t do my job and hell, it’s the best I’ve done. I did a lot of interviews but most of them failed but this one, this new job of mine is great. I’ve closed and did middle shifts and I’m more poised to do those middle shifts: 9am to 5pm. Not bad, honestly. Because of my new job, it’s been decided that I can help pay off the car payments that we have along with other credit cards that we have, which, we’ve done with one and one that had to go for reasons. I guess it’s just that with this job, I can actually fix everything that’s going on and I can contribute and be functional. Functional, which has always frightened me but alas, it can be done and I’m proving myself wrong in trying as I don’t want to ever give up. Why did I get scared of trying? I dunno, honestly. I wish I’ve done this sooner than before.


It’s been terrible as I’ve decided and forced myself off caffeine because of the fact that it was hurting and making me loopy; it didn’t jive well with my Bipolar Disorder etc; and so, with some reluctance, I did it though I did spoil myself with non caffeine drinks like Sprite but in the middle of that, I’ve lost some weight! Weight that makes me proud of as I’ve been walking 10,000 steps nowadays at work and beyond though I found that my own mental and emotional health is getting better though I did have to get on another drug to counteract the effects of one of my psych meds. It’s crazy how these things are and how I have to work through it.

But I found that my back pain-the disc is still paining me and quite to the point of not being able to bend and using that same pain to travel to my legs plus tickles of icy numbness which scares-maybe, even terrifies me, so I’m trying to get a test for me and that involves an MRI, which even with our great insurance has to be paid in parts or face the deductible before the insurance pays for it entirely. I hate American health insurance bullshit but what can I can do about it then, take it in stride, but hopefully, I can figure out why I haven’t quite healed in 5 ish months or more. It was worse then in December and in Jan, but now, it’s toying with me and I hate it. Jeeze.

Let’s hope that I can get it all sorted out.


Jose’s birthday cake. He turned 35

Posted on April 18th, 2019 in Blog, pictures by Michelle. 6 Comments

Congrats on the new job! I applied to the dollar store here when we first moved here but never got an interview. I think it would be a fun place to work. I justed wanted something laid back and at that time part-time so I could help my mom with her business. Anyway, I really hope you enjoy your new job. It sounds like you already like it so that’s good! Sometimes you just have to put yourself out there and give things a try.

I’m always scared of the side effects of a lot of medications for mental health issues and pain meds (which are actually sometimes the same medications used for one used for the other). I’ve been on Lyrica, Gabapentin, Paxil, Wellbutrin etc. and my younger brother has been on Ritalin, Concerta, Loxapine and some other ant-psychotic or stimulants for what they said was ADHD but what we know is hyperactivity in an autism spectrum disorder and we’ve both had some many side effects. We’ve both had to take other meds to counteract. It scares me.

Sorry to hear about your back. Hopefully, the MRI will help shed some light on the cause of the tingling and other symptoms. Often it’s nerve damage or a pinched nerve that will cause this. If you have disc issues such as a slipped or herniated disc you will oftentimes have some nerve damage along with it. It can usually be controlled by exercise, physio and medications. At least you walk a lot, believe it or not that helps a lot with mine that I have from a back and leg injury.

I love the colors in your new theme by the way, really pretty!

Posted on April 22nd, 2019, at 7:26 PM by Megan.

I’m glad work’s going well! It seems like you’re doing really well there! Keep it up!

Getting the right combo of meds can be hard. Hopefully all’s well there. Ah, back pain. I feel you. Though yours sounds really bad. Hopefully something can be done to help you!

Posted on April 25th, 2019, at 11:10 AM by Tiffany.

Congrats on the new job, and it’s amazing that you are loving it because I know that retail can be one of those things that are iffy about that sometimes. It helps when the customers are awesome. I understand unemployment sucks, I’ve been there and it’s not always easy to find a new job, so I’m very happy for you. 🙂

I forced myself to quit diet coke last year, so I know that it can be hard, while I didn’t all caffeine (teas/coffee) I have recently lowered my intake because I’ve noticed it made me feel loopy also, and sometimes like I couldn’t wake up without it. It’s amazing that this had a good effect on your mental and emotional health, and that you lost weight doing so. Congrats on that!

I hope that your able to find out a solution to your pain, and yes American health insurance sucks so much.

I hope that Jose had a happy birthday!

Posted on April 27th, 2019, at 9:22 AM by Mercy.

What a beautiful cake! It’s nice to read about you sorting and fixing everything after getting a job that you love, such a positive vibe.

Posted on April 29th, 2019, at 2:00 PM by Ashley.

” I hate American health insurance bullshit ” Here Here! I feel the exact same way. I work for the damn hospital I get all my tests and stuff done with but I have to pay a lot of money still. One MRI image is costing me around 400 bucks. Bleh!

That is great that things are going so well at your job! I’m glad you found a good environment to work in. That is always the hardest thing to find. Hopefully it stays good especially with you bad back problems. I hope they can figure out what is going on and help you more to keep it from either getting worse or just from hurting a lot. ♥

I need to start working on my health more again soon…. avoiding wheat, soda and other things. Bah! It sucks

Posted on May 1st, 2019, at 8:05 PM by Brandy.

Congrats on the new job! Working at a dollar store would be fun, and I’m glad that your co-workers are also friendly. Being in a good job is very rewarding. 🙂

I’m sorry to hear about your back issues. I’ve had a few myself, but its because I do a lot of lifting. The other day, I woke up with horrible pain, because I think that I slept on it wrong. Felt better throughout the day though, after I took some extra strength Tylenol.