I got a new job after many months of being unemployed, which is great and it’s at a 99 cent only store-retail honestly and what did I expect of it? I love it, unequivocally as I’ve made friends and friends with the management but don’t think we don’t and I don’t do my job and hell, it’s the best I’ve done. I did a lot of interviews but most of them failed but this one, this new job of mine is great. I’ve closed and did middle shifts and I’m more poised to do those middle shifts: 9am to 5pm. Not bad, honestly. Because of my new job, it’s been decided that I can help pay off the car payments that we have along with other credit cards that we have, which, we’ve done with one and one that had to go for reasons. I guess it’s just that with this job, I can actually fix everything that’s going on and I can contribute and be functional. Functional, which has always frightened me but alas, it can be done and I’m proving myself wrong in trying as I don’t want to ever give up. Why did I get scared of trying? I dunno, honestly. I wish I’ve done this sooner than before.
It’s been terrible as I’ve decided and forced myself off caffeine because of the fact that it was hurting and making me loopy; it didn’t jive well with my Bipolar Disorder etc; and so, with some reluctance, I did it though I did spoil myself with non caffeine drinks like Sprite but in the middle of that, I’ve lost some weight! Weight that makes me proud of as I’ve been walking 10,000 steps nowadays at work and beyond though I found that my own mental and emotional health is getting better though I did have to get on another drug to counteract the effects of one of my psych meds. It’s crazy how these things are and how I have to work through it.
But I found that my back pain-the disc is still paining me and quite to the point of not being able to bend and using that same pain to travel to my legs plus tickles of icy numbness which scares-maybe, even terrifies me, so I’m trying to get a test for me and that involves an MRI, which even with our great insurance has to be paid in parts or face the deductible before the insurance pays for it entirely. I hate American health insurance bullshit but what can I can do about it then, take it in stride, but hopefully, I can figure out why I haven’t quite healed in 5 ish months or more. It was worse then in December and in Jan, but now, it’s toying with me and I hate it. Jeeze.
Let’s hope that I can get it all sorted out.