Too Proud To Say Otherwise

Posted on May 15th, 2019 in Blog, pictures by Michelle. 2 Comments

Trigger warnings

Been difficult to write here because life’s been a rollercoaster of emotions and motions, but I’m doing what I can and with the best of my abilities but oh well, let’s jump into how my life’s been compared to the 1st of May.



New weight




It good to hear that your physical health is doing better, I do especially like that your weight loss is a good pace and is sustainable, I see a lot of friends and family starting to lose a lot of weight and then they gain it back, and truthfully I might lose like 1/2 a pound a month so not a lot but I respect someone like you who choose a healthy way to go at it.

I think it’s important to know you are human and you will make mistakes, but as long as you learn from them you can grow and heal and it seems like that is what you have done. I have known people in there late 20s to early 30’s when I was younger that had some form of osteoarthritis or arthritis, in fact it seemed very common in the color guard coaches and drum corp instructors that I had. The good thing is that you know about it early on, but you can’t predict the way you react to it, sometimes that is just what we do as humans react badly. I know a few years ago my little sister’s dad (she is a half-sister) came back into her life and I was very irrational because I felt like I would lose her to her dad and new sister. I think you are doing well to help yourself though.

I don’t think I have ever heard of Ita Bags, but I think I did something similar in high school but I used more than anime/manga buttons, I remember having some music/art is life buttons from hot topics, and it was a messenger bag I got from hot topic. I remember it was a fun small trend with a small group of friends, it was fun. I think after graduation I took off all the buttons because I got tired of them stabbing me lol.

Posted on June 3rd, 2019, at 4:58 AM by Claudine.

Congratulations on completing one month at work, Michelle! I’m so happy that you’ve found a job you love, with great friends and management too! Here’s to many more months and years in this job 🙂

Oh and congratulations on losing weight at such a steady pace! You inspire me to work harder on my fitness goals as well. I’m sorry to hear that you self-harmed again, but on the bright side it’s nice to see that you’re self-aware and you recognize that you still need work, but at the same time you also acknowledge how far you’ve gone. Sustainable weight loss and physical/mental healing don’t come easy, but with time we can conquer these obstacles! So proud of you! 🙂